johnnynotsid

Toanybody who is wondering aboutmy day of silence.... I slipped up instudy hala few times, but otherthan that, my lips were zipped. Unfortunately, my entire spanish class acted like douchebags about it so that was not fun. But then again,those kids are little pricks anyways.

My aunt came to visit, which was nice, and on Saturday I had a great time with my bf. We walked around my town,went to Whole Foods to eat abunch of fruit, went to the library where I checked out (or he checked out for me, since he's the one with the library card) Margaret George's The Autobiography of Henry VIII. I finished it last night.

I've always loved history and Margaret George and so this was awesome. 900-some pages in two nights. I could not put it down.

Unfortunately, the next day was not so good. My grandmother is in the hospital again. I won't be on much these days because we're really worried about her. She has cancer in her arm and lungs and a leaking heart valve which they cant repair surgically because she's almost 90.

It's been a rough few days.

Don't worry too much. Hope you all are well.

PS: Silver Lining isthat I have an A in Chemistry. My parents both did double-takes.

PPS: I'm also going to be in the Buzznet Survivor thingy.  So yay.

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On February 12th, a young man in California named Larry King was sitting in class when a classmate came up and shot him and killed him. Why? Because Larry was gay.

Ever since that project I did in Justice Service class on Homosexuality and did that interview with Mark, I have become more passionate about issues regarding gender and sexual identity and orientation. So tomorrow I plan to display this sign to mark my vow.

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Sorry, I can not speak. I am participating in The National Day of Silence, one of the largest student-led actions in the United States started to encourage schools and classmates to address the problem of anti-LGBT name-calling, bullying and harassment in schools. This year's event will be held in memory of Lawrence King, a California eighth-grader who was shot and killed Feb. 12 by a classmate because of his sexual orientation and gender expression. While I am personally a heterosexual, I am doing this not just to encourage the end of gay-bashing, but the end of ALL harassment whether based on gender, race, ethnicity, religion, gender identity, or sexual orientation. Nobody deserves to be hurt for who they are."

While I doubt my action will gain me any popularity points (as I go to Catholic School), I personally know what it is like to be discriminated against and harassed (not for my sexual orientation, but for my former religion). So I plan to wear this sign to signify my vow of silence. I hope others  participate in this as well.

Dear Girls,

Put some fucking clothing on.

Every girl is free to express her sexuality. There is nothing wrong with showing a little skin and being sexy. And if any person calls you a whore for it, I will be the first to pull a Naomi Campbell and throw a phone at them. No girl should be called slut/whore/skank/whatever for dressing like that. That is unfair and chauvanistic. You have the right to be you.

That being said, put some fucking clothes on.

First of all, though you have the right to dress how you wish, using T+A to get attention will only get you so far. And if you have more to offer than just your body, then you should learn how to make that sexy as well. Anybody can show their bra. Not everyone can have an in depth discussions with their dates about Classic Rock albums and American History and still get the guy to kiss you multiple times with a big grin on his face at the end of the night.

You're not giving into the double standard by covering up your bra. You're not going to make the guy lose interest.

Let me tell you what posing like that on the internet will get you:

The wrong kind of attention.

And I don't mean from those bitchy girls who will call you a slut. Screw them. They are just holding themselves and the rest of us back by giving into this toxic view society has of sexual  women.

You're not a bad person for wearing a miniskirt. You're not a stupid one either.

I am talking about pedophiles, though. Creepy guys who will look at that picture on Myspace of you on your bed in your bra and low rise jeans and target you, hoping maybe he can get you to give him some personal information and eventualy have sex with you.

There are FREAKS on the net, and you don't want to put yourself at risk.

Now don't get me wrong. I AM NOT SAYING THAT GIRLS WHO DO POST THOSE PICTURES ARE TO BLAME IF THEY GET  HURT. I WOULD NEVER EVEN SUGGEST THAT AND TO DO SO WOULD BE THE MOST INACCURATE, VILE, HORRIBLE, IDIOTIC, HEARTLESS STATEMENT ANY PERSON CAN MAKE TOWARDS A GIRL. IT IS NOT HER FAULT. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT. IT IS NEVER HER FAULT. IT IS NEVER YOUR FAULT. EVER.

Ever.

Ever.

But that doesn't mean you should not take care and be mindful of the attention you may attract. You never want to get hurt. And you certainly never want to get hurt and then have some twisted idiot blame you for it. You're a beautiful girl with your whole life ahead of you. You don't need to show off your breasts right now.

You are not independent yet. You don't have the same rights, responsibilities, experience and powers that grown women have. Putting yourself on display like that does not make you a woman.

So please.

Put some fucking clothes on and take some sensible photos. Let us see that pretty face.

Sincerely,

Wendy Notsid, Age 16

Physical nakedness is a wimp move. A far greater and bolder statement is made with emotional nakedness.

Anyone who says that people should look at other people as their brothers and sisters to make the world a better place is an idiot. Siblings have rivalries. People should look at other people the way a loving parent would look at their children.

The greatest artistic tragedy is the artist outliving their art.

I can't get to sleep. I keep having these weird thoughts.

Natural death is probably the cause of our subconscious getting sick of living our current lives.

Women get way more out of sex. Either they get more pain, or more profit. They can be ruined by it like a teenage streetwalker, or they can profit from it like Judith the Brave and save their entire race. Either way they get more.

I already know I could get someone hot for me if I wanted to. I wonder if I could get someone to fall in love with me?

The reason moths fly toward flames and butterflies don't is because while the butterfly could easily lose the pretty color on its wings if it tried something so daring, the moth has nothing to lose.

Humans are shocked if a person beats a puppy until it becomes a mean, vicious dog. What people don't realize is that we do exactly that to our own young.

Last year, I worked at Best Buy as a cashier. I worked ridiculously long hours in addition to school standing at Cash register dealing with an enormous assortment of people and more than one less than desirable co-worker. The work was unstimulating, soul-sucking, and it took a Hell of a lot out of me. after paying my school payments, uniforms, and food, I took $170 of what was left and spent it on a new Zune MP3 player. The happiest moment of my life was giving it to my sister for Christmas. It made it all worth it.

I know, yet another blog making excuses for my inactivity and I totally suck . I'm sorry.

I've been ill. Very ill. The type of ill that made my mom insist on keeping me home even though it's 4th quarter. That's ill. On top of that I had to say good bye to the two beings that have been constants in my life since I was four (no, not my parents, my cats) on Saturday. I am really trying to grab ahold of my life again. There has been a lot of trouble within my family lately as well and I am not even sure what is happening to me right now.

I can't promise I'll resume posting missions immediately. But I will try to get back to it when I can.


But just some thoughts over some comments I have been hearing online, offline and everywhere in between..... People, can we stop being nasty about other peoples' religions? If you dont practice it, you don't know it like the people who practice it do. And I don't mean people who practice it like tweve year old so called christians who haven't read the bible. I mean like people who are educated about what they practice. If they tell you something is wrong offensive to them when you make a comment about a religion, then just be fair about it. You're probably wrong and you're smearing  something some  people hold very dear. There is no problem with debating the meaning of a passage, but labeling an entire belief system and/or group of people as one thing when someone from that actual groupwho holds their beliefs very close to their hearts tells you it's wrong and/or asks you to stop talking like that? That's just acting out of intolerance.

Don't get me wrong, I think organized religion is an AWFUL concept, but I'd never go about saying "Mormons promote polygamy," or "Islam believes in making women subserviant" or "Christianity believes in gay-bashing."

That's just not right. Not all Muslims are terrorists. Not all Mormons are polygmists. Not all Baptists are Phelps memebers. Not all Catholic Priests are pedophiles.

And stop using terms that offend people of other groups, ok? Words I have stopped using have been cunt and Midget. And you know, some terms may seem harmless to you, but if someone is seriously  offended,  then t here is nothing good that an come from that. You  wouldn't call a black person  a "Negro" would you?

There seems to be an  amount of accepted intolernce lately in the name of tolerance and it's really bothering me.

So people, please, stop trying to mark everyone like that. It's not fair and it's just ignorant. There's enough ignorance in the world already.

(This is a joke)

You all know him and you probably think he's so great. Well guess what???? I HATE JOHN OUNCEOFWENTZ. HE MAY HAVE YOU GUYS FOOLED BY HIS SWEET AND CUDDLY DEMEANOR AND EXCELLENT WORKS OF ART, BUT NOT ME.  HE IS A LITTLE DWEEB AND HERE ARE ALL MY REASONS FOR LOATHING HIM:

He's a drug pusher.

This douchebag you all love is a total prick. He is a drug dealer who has gotten me hooked on a variety of controlled substances: smiles, the Mystery Jets, hugs, commenting other peoples' work...

I HAVE LOST SO MUCH OF MY SELF CENTEREDNESS THANKS TO HIM. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BE A NORMAL KNOW-EVERYTHING TEENAGER NOW HUH??

He ruins my adolesence with warm fuzzy happiness.
 

Another reason, which he was kind enough to share.




YEP! HE IS A CRACKHEAD. HE SMOKES CRACK. LOTS OF CRACK. AND THAT'S WHY HE'S ALWAYS SO FUCKING HAPPY. BEACAUSE HE SMOKES CRACK! OH, YOU THOUGHT HE WAS INNOCENT??? HE SMOKES CRACK! THINK AGAIN!! (CRACK!)

Also, how dare he love Stevie Nicks and The Velvet Underground AND The Boss AND be in my age group? I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE ONLY TEENAGER WITH MY TASTE IN MUSIC!! BASTARD STOLE MY SCHTICK!!

and the COOKING...

 WTF IS UP WITH HIS COOKING?? WHO IS HE BETTY FUCKINGCROCKER?? WELL GUESS WHAT JOHN DOUCHEBAGA??? YOULL NEVER BE AS HOT AS BETTY CROCKER!!.... DAMNIT HES HOTTER THAN BETTY CROCKER!!



And worst of all talking to him. I actually go insane when he goes offline too long and I'm totally without my pride waiting for him to sign on. Dreaming of his pretty hair (which he shaved) and all the lovely things he says. AND WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE SO SWEET AND SINCERE? WHEN I WAS CRYING ABOUT MY GRANDMA POSSIBLY DYING AND MY MOM GOING NUTS, THIS CARE-BEAR WANNABE JUST HAS TO BE A SHOULDER TO CRY ON, DIDN'T HE??

His transgressions go deeper though.... John Ortega is a whore.



HE ADMITS IT.

Oh, John, is that where you were all this time?  Hanging out with Elliot Spitzer, were you?

Gah! And his content! So imaginative!  So heartfelt! So pretty! HE IS LURING YOU INTO HIS BROTHEL OF SMILEY CRACK-SMOKING.

I hate you John Ortega III. I hate you.

(This is a joke)

If you're going to look into the history of punk rock at all, you should probably start with The Velvets because not only are they largely considered the first  band to really bring about the punk movement but they were the first real alternative rock band. Before them, rock and roll artists with the exception of The Beatles rarely experimented outside the basic fast and rough sound of rock and roll. For all the great work done by artists like The Rolling Stones and Jerry Lee Lewis, they all kept to the same basic patterns and format created by Rock and Roll Inventer Chuck Berry. Those who didn't, such as The Who and The Beatles, kept their variations to louder political statements and the addition of classical music elements. Sounds that were different as a compound but whose parts had been heard before.

The Velvet Underground were a whole other story. Think The Doors only ballsier, more intelligent, and more inventive. They did everything. They did it all, from odd sounds created by unorthodox instruments and synthesizers to songs about completely taboo subject matter stemmed from band leader Lou Reed's love of the Writers of the Beat Generation. The Velvet Undergound were not looking to just make something pretty or something loud and fun, they took rock and roll and fucked it up.

As stated before, they definitely took themes in their songs to old places, tunes about Transvestites getting lobotomies ("Lady Godiva's Operation") and a man going to see a dominatrix ("Venus in Furs"). They took songwriting to new places.

It all started in 1964 when New York native Lou Reed met the Welsh classical music student John Cale, who had worked with numerous experimental composers and was interested in rock music. The two men recruited musicians Sterling Morrison, Maureen Tucker, and Angus MacLise to join there group. After a few failed bands,  the four of them formed a new group called The Velvet Underground, the title of a Michael Leigh book about the 60's sexual underground.

Rehearsing recording demos in New York, the group soon attracted the notice of famous artist and prodigy Andy Warhol, who loved the group completely orginal sound. He added to their lineup German singer Nico and brought them on his Exploding Plastic Inevitable Tour and got them signed to Verve Records. The group recorded their debut album The Velvet Underground and Nico in 1967. It's famous cover, featuring a Banana, was painted by Warhol himself.




Though not commercially successful, the album's impact was undeniable. Not only had they created their own new genre, but it was said by legendary artist Brian Eno that even though maybe only a thousand people brought the record when it came out, every one of those people were inspired to start a band.

The equally impressive White Light/White Heat was recorded in 1968, with  Nico dropped  and Warhol no longer their manager.

After their self-titled third album in 1969, the band recorded its last album in its original lineup in 1970, called Loaded. The recording of it resulted in Reed leaving the band, unaware that the record would ever be released. It was, however, and the singles Rock and Roll and Sweet Jane became radio hits. Squeeze was released in  1973 to less success, with Reed absent, focussing on his solo career and recording with David Bowie.

In 1990, following the death of patron Andy Warhol, john Cale and Lou Reed released an album of songs written for Warhol titled Songs for Drella.  In 1992, Maureen Tucker, Sterling Morrison, John Cale and Lou Reed embarked on a reunion tour (Nico dying in 1988 from a blow to the head). In 1995, Morrison died of Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. 

After the original recording period of the band,  Lou Reed, John Cale, and Nico went on to have solo careers with varying amounts of success, but their band perhaps had the most impact. The New York stage was set for strange, new approaches to rock and roll, and artists like Patti Smith, The Ramones and The Talking Heads followed in the wake of The Velvet Underground. This was the band that invented alternative music. They started it all.


Discography: (Taken from The Velvet Undrground Wikipedia page)

• The Velvet Underground and Nico (recorded 1966, released 1967)
• White Light/White Heat (recorded 1967, released 1968)
• The Velvet Underground (recorded 1968, released 1969)
• Loaded (recorded and released 1970)
• Squeeze (recorded 1972, released 1973)

So, by now I've admitted to having a rather unnatural attraction to the middle Jonas Brother, Joe Jonas. And today I had the idiocy to actually read an interview with him, when really I should just stick to admiring his pretty face. I mean, I really shouldn't have any interest in his favorite foods or the generic response he gives to the "What kind of girls do you like?" question. (I have not read the answer but I'm guessing it runs along the lines of "Nice, easy going girl who has a sense of humor and can be herself").

But, for some reason, I actually chose to read an article in Sweet Sixteen Magazine where Mr Jonas and his brothers gave us "Ten Secrets About Guys You Wish You Knew!"

Really, I have no interest in getting relationship advice from a teenage boys because those are exactly the group of people that have put me off dating. However, I looked. God help me, I looked.

And what do you know, the boy makes a stupid generalization!



[source: jonasbrothersfan]

Transcript:

"Guys definitely want to take a relationship slower than girls. Girls can be planning their marriage and guys are still going, "Uh, does she like me?" I waited a long time before I had my first kiss, but I think I probably could have waited longer.And you don;t need to plan things out, either. Letting things happen when they happen is good."

Any guy who actually thinks girls, or even most girls, are like this, needs a crash course in People-With-Vaginas 101

So, to make sure that my written reaction to this was not total self-centerred bullshit, I repeated the quote to four other chicks who I know to be smart and held in high regard on buzznet to see what they thought about it.

Newageamazon (Ashly), Age 25: I would say it is a gross overgeneralization, and is something that changes with age. I think that's sadly average for an 18 year old boy.

Breesays (Bree), Age 27: No, haha, no. That's totally the opposite of my relationships. One of the JoBos said that? Fools. Joe is misled. I didnt even think about [marriage] with my last bf, and we were together for 2 years. I tend to think things aren't going to work out. and I don't think that's pessimistic.

Unsceneunheard (Shiona), Age 20: Nope, maybe  because i have no intention of getting married? Why is someone making loco plans?  I'm never sure of anything - so I change how I feel about a person from day to day. I'm fickle. Haha. I think... maybe it's true in the long term that a girl is perhaps in general more likely to be looking for commitment, but not in the beginning? Like it does maybe get to a point where things have evened out to a sense of normalicy when it's a girl that's more likely to go 'uh so next step now pls?' than a dude.

Huldaholm (Hulda), Age 15: No. We're all "naw he doesn't like me" And if he does, we don't notice it!

Angelcrossmarie (Angel), age 15 (joking): Joe Jonas has obviously been effected by some mental disease that stemmed from too much Disney Channel and too many underage groupie girlfriends. (Note: This is a JOKE)


Alright. Now, the girl described in that ill-founded statement probably fits the Category of what I like to call the "Charlotte."

Now, boys, while there are Charlottes in the world, there are way more Carries, Mirandas and Samanthas. Trust me. Most girls when they go out with guys are not necesarily looking for marriage or even a deep relationship. a lot of the time we're maybe trying you out. Or we're playing the field. Or we want companionship. Or we have no idea what we want. But we don't set our expectations that high very quickly.

In fact, we're more negative. Actually, to tell you the truth, in my experience, girls are very slow with relationships and are afraid of getting their hopes up with a guy. We know we can become disappointed and the last thing we want to do is become the stereotype of an over-clingy, over-dependent dreamer. That's the worst. We don't want heartache.

Ys, sometimes, we move more quickly. Sometimes we worry we have to take the next step, because, well, we don't want to seem indifferent or we lose patience. Because guys? Not the best at picking up subtleties.

But marriage?

Ok, a lot of times girls like to have fun and talk about it amongst themselves at a young age. But that has more to do with the wedding than marriage itself. We can't help it. We just like the idea of a day of getting lots of attention combined with getting all dolled up and eating a lot of cake.

I personally think of the dress (for me, old fashioned off the shoulder straps with understated pearl trim and a white feather in my hair), the bridesmaids (they bring their own black dress and wear matching silver pins), the cake (one layer better have mint chocolate chip ice cream) and the ceremony (low attendance, outdoor, interfaith service. I walk down the aisle ON MY OWN).

But at the same time? at this point in my life, the idea of marriage is not that appealing. Not for now or later. I don't want my dad to "give me away" (what am I? A sofa?) or my guy to "take me"  (so now I'm an insurance policy. Whoop de do). I don't want pressure to change my name or get pregnant immediately. I don't want employers worrying about me having to go on maternity leave or rush out of the office to get my kids while my husband goes without worrying about any of that. No thank you.

Sure, I'll probably change my mind a million times, but my point is I might think about weddings, but at the same time my sights are not set on matrimony.

And sorry guys, but you're not so amazing and attractive and wonderful that we immediately are going to decide to wear your ring and bear your children. Even if we are looking for a serious relationship, we like to make sure you're not a douchebag first and that takes time.

Now, there are some chicks who are thinking about that when they start dating a guy, it's true. The older of them usually are worrying about beating the biological clock andby then already know they want to get married. But even though they're thinking about it, that doesn't mean the guy they're looking at really has to worry. She isn't planning anything for you. She's trying to evaluate whether or not you're worth planning for.

If they're young enough to date a Jonas brother? Well either theyre stupid or they have very limited ambitions. And you know what? There is a very easy way for any guy to make sure they dont have to worry about that!

Take an interest in our goals, our ambitions, our intelligence and opinions before asking a girl out. It's that simple. That way you know what she wants and how it compares with what you're looking for.

TA DA.

So in closing:

No, we don't see a possible spouse in every guy we date. We dont even necessarily see a serious relationship. For the most part, you guys are expendable at first. Sorry.

We're not as fast as you think, we're reflective.

Look into what's going on underneath if you're worried about getting too close too soon

For every Charlotte, there are numerous Samanthas, Carries, Mirandas, Huldas, Brees, Ashlys, Wendys and Shionas

(Any chick wanting to add her two cents into the blog itself, tell me, and I'll put your quote in)

Here is why I’m upset.

I love how I bust my ass to write good journals, make well thought out statements, capitalize my pronouns and proper nouns, contribute interesting and relevant arguments and inform. I post a journal that I happen to be pretty fucking proud of and yet what do people want to talk about?

Oh, let's see, Caliw wrote once again for the 35749026402573th time about how she wants to leave buzznet. Hmmmm.... Didn't she already make this threat a gazillion times? She's o1nly saying that for the attention it always gets her. and of course someone else follows suit.

Oh yeah, and people who write like this:

"dont have will to do anyfin.... pf except breaking things around meh.. i ate liike... 2 chocolates... 3 hazel-nut chocolates.. 2 strawberry chocoltes.. 6 lil chocolate bars >_< i have gallon of chocolate-vanilla ice cream...with looot of cream n chocolate on top, it makes me happeh :D.. kinda =/ have lot dark thoughts... n im thinking bout...leaving all this here...so i probalby wont be back... pf if anyone even reads this...loves ya all xx"

[Source] (yeah that's a journal. It has 63 comments)


Ok, I don't validate myself on the number of comments I get and I certainly am not begging for attention. But it's just downright insulting to have my considerable efforts be passed aside while   Caliw gets a gazillion comments for posting the same journal for the 355893756th time.

I am not asking for a ton of comments, I just want the journals that make the most commented be something of substance and not a cry for attention by somebody with less intellectual depth and emotional maturity than my puppy.

Good God has no one any pride?

Oh and don't give me bullshit about how I am just begging and whining for attention. I get enough and if I was really that desperate I could just as easily say I was leaving. And then where would the music razzies be in october? And who will promote other people’s content on the buzz brigade. I have my name adorned with that star and my name at the bottom of the screen for a reason and so it would cause major shit if I threatened to leave.

But you know what? I don't want to cause useless and useless drama on my page. If it is going to be drama, I want it to actually be real interaction DEBATE about INTERESTING ISSUES. Why? Because I have PRIDE. I have PRIDE in what I put into words and the things I say.

I'd just rather have more people with that attitude get the recognition.

Sorry I have not been very active, save for the videos. I have not posted a blog in a number of days, I know. I'm kind of swamped with work (my research essay is due tomorrow!) but hopefully I will be able to resume writing soon. Hugs and kisses.

Videos will continue.

Some worrie I have though:

1) I am not writing well right now
2) I am becoming worried about how attracted I am becoming to the Jonas Brother that does not have a Jew-fro
3) Driving lessons
4) My religion grade

Asking for some good vibes. Best wishes. Buzz missions have resumed. Lots of love.

Wendy Notsid.